Colliba's wordpoem

  Saying lies easier than truth, doing wrong just a snap. Good awaits in long queue of actions, just an action and sinning just a sniff. Righteousness made a hard to find asset. What of rewards?. Saving pains while spending thrives, striving to build and braking just a moment. Broke is a thing, riches takes times. Exstreamly hard to achieve or even acqure but lossing? No effort at all. It is a life, no sense. A life no sense. https://www.bandlab.com/post/9d5c5c3e-f806-f011-aaa7-0022484892d6

 While a smile keeps our faces bright, the expression is right. The old man said to me, "Son, be as light as feathers so that when you fall, you won't hit the ground so hard". "Be as wise as a snake when exploring the world", he added. I've grown with it and here I am. Be humble and never get worried because no one leaves this world alive. His words. Was carried away and I got to learn each word.

 It is not done untill it is done, not over until time stops. Why more wisdom is stupidity, more knowledge madness, much love sickness and kindness weakness. Cares to scares, they ran all away, all their way, no where to be seen, no where to be heard. Not more anymore, less and calculated moves ought to be taken. Be not more wise, with more knowledge, doom in the room.

 Harsh and hard truth, you don't have?. No one cares. You don't have? you'll be looked down upon. You don't have? We will ask for it when you asked for favour. You don't have? You'll be asked to surrender what you've got. You don't have and so what will you do?. Just give your time and effort to add to him that have. It's because you don't have.  You lacked not because you don't deserve, you don't have not because you can't. You just don't have. Searching up and down when you don't have, willing to trade your justice to get, in all you don't get, not yet a remedy. You are just the same. Suffering, hurting, crying and at the same time feeding the haves. It's because you don't have. They laugh and merry, hurry or else you'll make them sad. Do that do this, they won't give a chance. "Take this and that our kids wanna learn". Feed them, pay their fees and yet not yours. You don't have and yet you ...

 It pains from the back, the sting ends at the belly. Held that, let go, hold this, let go, hold another and let go. Go down low, come up, close eyes and open them wider. It is like death draws near and here it finds the host. With the heavy belly, only holy one will save. short of breath, holding it deep and letting it go, grab anything, all strength ends here. Feel like biting someone, but think it over. Doctor says 8mm, almost ready for a new life. Feel like it should be removed quickly, it's like won't take it anymore. Here comes the nurse, doc follows, lay on the bed, legs apart and its again my turn! How long? How painfull must it be?. Push"  doc says, my love repeat the same.  Close eyes push as was told, the pain hit harder, stopped. Not possible, not possible. My love, you can make it, it's a new life, one for nine months remember. Strenthened, pushed, the pain the worry and the stress. A norrow cry, a laughter in the room, congradulation, it's a baby........

 Was never seen coming, until thunder strikes. Has never been a subject of discussion,  until the action was taken.  Thus a phenomena, action then outcome. No coming back, though no one comes out a life. No reverse,  not a vehicle to look back, yes you've seen it work for them, but they are not you, good to be remembered,  another man's food is...! But what if, the opposite becomes true? What if life changes? What if it happens to be what we fear the most? What if? A life well lived, when grey hair comes with riches. Well lived when grey hair applied wisdom, it is life. No easy-going,  no easy acquisition, so many NOs. Then what if, we wake up and only find you and I on the planet? Will we still have this disputes? Will you be angry with me, or will you just call me "daughter?". I've messed up can't deny,  have been the worse version you never wanted to see in me. I know, though I lack control over it, am taken by it and I would blame culture.  No...

 My tears confined, my fears concealed. An introvert I am, as my silence is heard. Explanation left to the examination, their expectations fail terribly, my life reverential but yet formidable to the evil minded, skeptical individuals. Terror incited inside, horror on their faces reveal the seal not instrumental anymore. My shield outpowered their long mouths. Concerned by my affairs, confirmed by actions.

 Run, run and never look back, you've made a choice, just look for more and more. Success seen as it is, no one measures it and you've decided to look for more and more. More exallent in a way, kudos in your work, you will reap what you sow and by your fruit you'll be known. Buy you a fruit and healthy you become, run as you can to fight the fight you will win, for you have decided to look for more and more.

Am not lost, or am I?. Not stupid, or I may be!. Am not naive, you've seen it. A wise counsellor? I am!. But why all fall on me? Why can't I follow my own advices?. Why is talking more fan than actual action, activity acts absent after plans! Are all lost, all gone and forgotten forever. "Do you remember the plan we had? Was never implemented", they'll say. "It was a good plan!" Do you know what's good? If yes, why was it never taken serious? "Well, because it was good, it would have worked". Oh my! You mean we never want things that works out well? No, it was a risk and risks are not taken by many but a single person. Sounds bad! Now forgotten, latter cried on it, we wished it worked out!!! Am not lost or am I? Not stupid, or I may be. Now with the gray hair, am wise. But now, was born a good child, loved and taken care of. Though couldn't afford all but many was given. Questions, "when did the rain started falling...

From that time that the rain started falling on us, the sun had ceased to shine. Maybe you won't believe me, but it is what I expected of you. Why? Cus it is the way of all man kind. "Man does better what he loves, not what is forced on him".they said. Very true. Though a times, men does the future and the love buried under the ground. Letting go seems unbearable, but it ease the way out. Now today I had thought of talking of the ironical reality of life.  There are things that even the gods won't change. Nothing will ever change. They'll remain the same from the first time a child breath the first breathe on earth until the last breathe. I believe also the dead are controlled and lived under these laws. I had seen this in my life and the life of them around and now kindly,  stay calm and read through.  Think of all the points and relate them to whatever you've seen happening around you. 1. Man hears what he wants to hear not what you say. Have you...

In the world full of pain I got myself, can't reverse in  the creation. Where none pleases the soul as heart beats the drums. Struggling can't stop but in it laughing is inevitable, merry comes once in a while, as joy suffers fraudulent acts, wars we battle in within and depression for the well known but broke dudes. It is why I'll say,," I am afraid", Walking away sometimes work, forgetting would have been the cure. The pain ain't the problem I swear, but the mark left within that will always trigger the pain, I am fearful not a lie, I prefer blindness for their faults. I am weak can't denay, I prefer silenting my mouth. I am afraid can't hide, it would be better in my own world, peredventure I'd not be seen, unfortunately it's ain't God's plan, not within His thoughts, thus here was born, here I live and here I'll die.  Working hard pays less, this I've find interesting, the one who has to b...

Well, as you had just put it, it has been seen. As you said, it was done. When laziness had not been your thing from the time of birth. Even mom was amazed when in her womb. She had conceive a unique child, time came and on that day on that date 29th October 1959, a cry of a little King to be, was heard in Chato in Tanganyika. The stars I believed shined all through that night as yours was lifted higher than any other at that time. Well it was seen in your childhood, during school times when you'll run to and from school, wasting no time as it is said. Your teachers had known you for a great leader and a son of change. When you started your education at Chato Primary School in 1967  to 1974  to the Katoke Seminary in Biharamulo for secondary education (1974 -1977) relocate to Lake Secondary School in (1977) graduate in 1978. At Mkwawa High School  and 1979 at Mkwawa College. All were hardwork and ambition seen within your face, the skys weren't the limit as ov...

Seen not to be understood, the secret within the hush to accuse. Prejudgment and assumption kills and had killed many. Many rotting in jail, many suffers and have hard times. Gives emotional pains, spiritual illnes and hatred. The pain within, a times I see, in thoughts and just amazed. Woken to the world of vengeance where "mtego wa panya uwanasa walioko na wasiokuwepo". The reason being misunderstandings, got angry, prejudged and thus punish the old man. It's revenge, I hurt them and thus they'll want to tell me I don't know what they are capable of. A great mistake, as they thought he was involved, "he has to suffer the most" their conclusions. They never knew how innocent he was, how he had good plans for them and how he had viewed them to be the most important persons in this age. This they deed and torn his heart asunder. Woe, you've pleased your heart, you've done your revenge on what you never knew. It's a wrong battle you...

From  both corners of the borough, nothing we can borrow, Now darling,,hear my heart, hear what it has to say, What it feels when felt you are far from this soul. What mind thinks differs, but here are what I  Never know how to express, explain or even Make clear,,, now darling hear, here I pour them out. Would you believe me when I'll say I love you? Would you believe me if I say I'll never stop Until the night turn to light and the light lights? Would you believe me if I say 'forever I'll want you To be mine, to be my better half though you already are. Maybe just the beginning for what is within is yet To be revealed, yet to be stumped with the mark of love. Darling, would you believe that I am always there. Would you believe that I always watch over Your sleep, would you believe that I know your pains That you are vividly and plainly painted within my heart, That I do know you, and kept learning you daily As I keep loving you, as I keep on ma...

 Joy comes in the morning, maintained till evening when under it, It is seen widely as it comes with the smile On her face as its light strike the heart of the Loving soul of a lady, it was revealed the hiden Defination of life as it brings back to life  What lived in the ancient days, what it meant In the old days and how it was expressed By then, by them who had finds it in the reasonable Places and rememberable events at the mentioned old days.  When men and women were so exuberant with it, As its' reword, from both was conssidered secret As it was the pride of the family and the great tressure To the ladies.  Joy comes in the morning when under it. When unspoken it becomes louder and then mentioned!, All stays still, what God had put together none Separates as it was built under it, what becomes one Had to be built on it and thus it is the shelter to the Ones believing and the foundation of the ones lasting, In hard times and the best, in sadness and ...

Lies are true, fly if possible hide if concealable, Smile, keep off distractive redo, undo damages Garbages cause in the course of life, got to fight When survival required, from enemy flea Flight accepted when absconding, accounting For the better life life has for ones destiny to reveal, Lies are true, sorted, branded, spoken, then awarded, As truth, can't say no, that's not true it's true, Lies are true when keen ears needed listening To words award as the sound sounds with Reasonings mind and an accepting heart, Zero down and mend your ways for lies never lie Lies are true, protective incarnate it's personality As lies never lie only reveals the fact and the act Of ones characters, lies are true.  High eyes looked, seen at the scene opposite is true, High mind minds, visions at the moment for it is true. Great are the thoughts though thorns deepen in wounds Feels healing is needed but the opposite is true. Lies spoken, truth canceled conceal the pain truth Seen to...

  Quarantine the reason behind this, covid-19 the catalyst Of all these sins, this is why she is on the street today. What is she doing now? Look she stop suddenly With unbelieving heart, she shook her head again and Again bending over she picks clay, lay down herself To give her back rest, tiredness in her revealed as Up she stands. Her right hand over her waist, face Frozen as to her mouth the soil she takes in, "Iodine she needs," it's hard to understand what is On her head, what she Is thinking, Usual crime? I don't know! Suicide ? No.! She has the ball with her, And now all of her is gone, she is broken. She's my neighbor's first born child, she's now thirteen. Verily the author of her life wronged her ; her destiny, The guider through her paths has robed her; her future, and The giver of life has given her the unwanted one. But why all these miseries? Look she is her child's sister. The grand-stepmother to the child knows these henc...

Gray head with no brain! Useless. Ray from sun uncovered, useless. From the four limps to two, Never seen it, never approve it. Now is one and no now is much more of now, Bow when required, hired to be seen, brain also bow To the less fortunate by then among them. From toothless, two, four and now thirty two, Books we warmed as exams awaited to test, Failure exam proofs him to be seen as a looser By then, can you see that now on his face? No not at all, papers without brain, useless, Theory lacking experience lacking skills, useless, Seemed as seen there before times of books, No employment, didn't succeed to the learning Life, didn't approved by the trainers hence I questioned! Were we taught these, if yes by who and where? When was that?, a decade, half of it plus three Solid years, were never seen, never learnt never taught. Vision with no well planed mission, useless, Mission hallucinated allusion to the vision, useless, Tic tack passes by, was told its money...

STAYING SAFE Since sin is a sin seen or seen not we live, We are human and inhuman we ought to leave. It is suicidal how we handle one another Together we are in this, another tough times, Doughty spirit of ours to skip hours till morning Praying that more mourning mornings won't be Seen in any scene, bro we are all here, hear now. All wanna live, all gotta survive we are all in this, I understand but put that staff away, talk to me I'll listen, add not hard time to the tough times. A curfew we respect, expect change of behavior, Beat me not up, kill me not, avoid making it so hellish For me, if you say I'll listen. Remember you too Are in this great risk, one and a half meter the role Observe that, serve me and the entire nation, Safety starts with me and you, safety is responsibility, Taking 100% ownership, take the burden hidden within. Hygiene the way, sanitization the game, be brothers keepers. How is it? stick to the rules,...

To hide it leads me, So blind that nothing white Remains within me. Am done for am of no light For in sin I've  sink Deep and deeper, my soul Is darken,destroyed,ink leave marks of sinful Saul. Am of no good Inside, instead am full Of heavy wood Of cross load, I look a fool, Reasons can't express Sorrowful heart of misery Withing hurts as I think less Over all sentuary. It's same everyday, No change as it appear Within all day Long, I've done all here My soul pray And search mercy's face now, Nothing to play With, nothing! I wish to know Why am held back, And answer my question "how?"